I did good to others. I never done bad thing to others even if I had to give during my whole life.
I gave all, stayed low, I loved others for real from the bottom of my heart.

Now? After all that I have been done my life is fuked up and too much bad things are happenning.
How can he do this to me? to My family?

By Trusting God –

1. It made me weaker, not stronger.
2. It blurred my vision of truth, intellectual abilities (I was always an A+ kid) and made me unrealistic.
3. Extremely biased thoughts against non-believers.
4. I learned that I am the one who have to save myself, not some fictional hope

I wasted too much time on this…Suffering is unbearable right now.
I’m sure praying won’t do anything, it only gives you the same effect as meditation in Yoga or
anything similar.
I want to be enlightened, be myself and live my life now.

Is this a good thing?